Tuesday I had a new program installed. No, not on my computer, in my body. I have been contemplating this decision for a few years really. Any one who has struggled with their weight probably considers weight loss surgery at some point or another.

I kept telling myself, when I was sick of being fat , I would do something about it. So I would lose 20-30 pounds and then gain it back. I went to my doctor asking for his help, asking what he thought of the lap band procedure. He told me it was a cop out and said I just needed to go to weight watcher like his wife did. Well thanks.. wish I had thought of that before.. oh wait, I had done weight watchers.. several times.

I studied the procedure for a LONG time. Read everything, the good , the bad and the ugly. For thoes of you who don't know, the lap band is a small ring that is put around the top part of the stomach making it very difficult to over eat, but its real purpose is to help to feel full longer and ultimatly to eat less and loes weight. It is not a cop out. It is still hard work. I will still need to choose my food wisely. Since I can only consume small amount of food, I have to pick the foods that have the most nutrition. I still have to exercise. It is no magic bullet. It takes a lot of courage.

I am a few days post op. I made it through about 3 weeks of nothing but liquids to prepare for the surgery. I am sore, but recovering well I think. Today was the first day I got to eat mushie foods. I prepared myself 1/2 cup of cottage cheese with a tablespoon of applesauce. I couldn't finish it, but it was great to actually eat something again.

I have not told very many people what I have done, until now. But I have been so inspired by other peoples blogs about their weight loss journey that I thought I would see if I could summons the guts to post my journey and share what I am learning with others.

I have had a few people tell me I was crazy, a few people tell me I wasn't big enough to consider weight loss surgery ( which is a whole other blog post in itself! ) But for the most part, the people closest to me have been very supportive. Especially my hubby who has picked up the slack for me while I haven't wanted to be in the kitchen as much. He is adopting many of the same eating habits I will be for his own health. He has always loved me no matter what the scale said but he is also my biggest cheerleader because he has seen how much I have struggled and knows how much I wanted to try this. I don't want to let him down.

So, here I go.. wish me luck!!